Rebuilding

Happy Monday!

I've counted 8 snowflakes so far; they look SOOOOOOO pretty! Yes I know. Easy for me! I'm admiring them from my 18th floor condo. Haven't even stepped out the door yet. When I do though, it will be full steam ahead. I'm off to the mail to send out more book orders, the grocery store and then Edmt City Centre Mall.

A girlfriend put a wonderful thought into my head last week. The idea of a 'vision board'. They've been around forever, and I've known about them for years. I just never ever did one. It's interesting, because as I look back, I've achieved a good many of my goals. In fact, but for my failed marriage, my 'imaginary vision board' has most certainly come to pass.

Anyway, I'm now going to do a real vision board. I have a pile of magazines on my coffee table. I'm going to cut out pictures or quotes that reflect what I want in my life. The board I'll do now is obviously much different than the vision board I would have done at 20, 30, or 40 years of age. At 54, one's ideas about happiness and contentment are different. At least I think they are.

Rebuilding a life is SO SO very difficult. I believed I'd be with my husband forever; that we would grow old together and take care of each other. That of course is over and done with. That being said, I do know I'm fortunate that I at least have the opportunity to start over. I'm not stuck in a rut with burdens too big to overcome. In addition, I'm acutely aware that as I endeavour to rebuild my life, I'm doing it with every advantage in the world. I have family, friends, my faith, a roof over my head, my health, my wits about me and.......hope.

Please know, I don't always have hope. There are days when my 'hope quotient' is pushed aside by grief, heartbreak and despair. It's why on days like today when I do feel hope, that I want to soak up every moment. I want to relish every hour and believe that if I can have hope today, I can have it again tomorrow.

Here's to a hopeful Monday for us all!!!!!!